Category: Random thoughts

Hey guys. I know, I didn’t post in here for some time, and some of you probably thought that I’d just abandon this blog. Surprise, I’m back with another random thing I’d like to hear your opinions about.
I actually came up with the idea for this post last night, probably at about 2 AM. I couldn’t sleep, and my brain just started remembering things from 2 years ago. Most of you probably know those situations. You just start thinking about random conversations, wondering if you might have said something completely messed up without realizing it. Unfortunately, I’m one of those people who can’t stop thinking about it unless they talk to someone, so I’m going to give you context now.
The conversation happened somewhere in 2024. I was hanging out with a very good friend from school. We were watching movies at my place, and we were both getting hungry, so we decided to order some food. Everything was going well until she picked some food combination I had never heard of. Don’t get me wrong—I don’t care what people eat. However, I’m an honest person, sometimes too honest. So when I saw what she wanted to order, I said something like: "You’re so weird." I meant it as a joke, but she immediately started crying. When I asked her what was wrong, she said that I hurt her because I basically insulted her. I didn’t really get it, but I apologized because that’s how I am. She calmed down, and we pretended as if nothing had happened.
We are still friends now, and she probably forgot about that day already. However, that conversation keeps popping up in my head. I still wonder if what I said really was an insult. In a different friend group, we call each other weird all the time, in a joking way of course. Same thing with my partner. If someone listened to our conversations, they’d probably think we actually hate each other. In my opinion, those things should always be jokes and nothing more. As long as people can tell that I’m joking, there’s nothing wrong with calling someone weird. Most of my friends agree with me. I know that I’m socially awkward. Maybe my whole friend group isn’t normal, I can’t tell.
What do you guys think? Did I really insult my friend, even if I was clearly joking? Is my humor actually kind of toxic? Or do you think I might have triggered something I didn’t know about? And how do you handle things like that in your friend groups? I’d really appreciate every single answer. For now, thanks for reading, and have a nice day.

Here is one of my many random thoughts I had today. I was on the bus, earbuds in, listening to my playlist on spotify. The bus was crowded, I was tired as hell and everything stressed me out. For context, my playlist is a mess. I like many different genres of music and I never made playlists for certain moods or situations. Because of that, I have to skip a lot of songs in order to find one that fits the general vibe I’m feeling. Today was one of those days. A power metal song I normally love? Too agressive. An epic cover of my favorite disney song? Too emotional. Some random celtic song I found yesterday? Too happy. On days like this, I wish there was a soundtrack composed just for me and the situation I’m in. Some perfectly fitting music that follows me around everywhere I go. Something that’s epic and emotional, relaxing or just happy, depending on what I’m thinking about. In my opinion, music can describe emotions better than words or pictures. That’s why I love soundtracks in general. They tell me so much about a character. I know that my life is not very interesting over all, and I wouldn’t want everyone to listen to it. It would just be cool to always have something perfect to listen to so I can drown out the annoying stuff around me and the voices of people I don’t want to hear. What do you think about that? Would you like a personal soundtrack or do you enjoy silence more?